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My trip to Eugene, OR was amazing. (weeks late in writing this, but so what). The conference was a 5 day event, but I only stayed for the two day pre-conference. I was soo meant to stay for the full five days. I felt like I needed it. I almost got teary eyed when it was time to leave. Back at work, at my desk, I kept thinking, I wonder what they’re talking about now? Im supposed to be there!!  However the time I did stay was amazing. I met some awesome women, heard some wonderful stories, and began to think that this is my calling.

*side note* however when trying to explain my sisters’ pregnancy with a coworker, I stated, “Yeah her water broke early and she didnt have enough of that…uh…stuff…to…you know, the watery stuff to keep the baby…”

“You been the ambiotic fluid?” She stared at me like I had grown a third eye.

Geeez, am I supposed to remember everything? I am only an aspiring midwife. So what if I dont remember that water substance stuffie mcjiggie. 🙂

Anywho, I did take photos. But this blog isnt the place to post them. Facebook possibly. What I actually learned is that I need to simply take my time in this whole midwife journey. I feel like im all over the place. Ive been treating this like some type of check list, get everything done by such and such date.  This isnt about a check list/pre req./to do list. It’s a life style. Here I am with my: anatomy (check), physiology (check), doula course (check), apply (check)… As I heard stories and listened to their backgrounds, this is a life experinence. Not a to do list. Basically I  feel like I was on the right path, but not exactly following the best course.

Its getting there. 😉

 
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Posted by on April 22, 2011 in dear diary

 

things that make me smile

Now I’ve gotten this ideal from other bloggers and blogs, namely Sofullsista, to list things, events, etc., that makes me smile. It’s funny, I can list 101 things that irk me, pisses me off, annoys me, and irritates the hell out of me. I could write a book on it. However, things that make me smile, seem  to be few and far between.

I also came to realize that I tend to read and blogroll really Debbie Downer blogs. I started to think, are there any happy blogs out there. And immediately with that thought, I realized if I want to read more happy blogs  I need to start with my own. Duh

Things that make me smile:

I smiled and my heart completely melted when I saw ABC World News story on dads and their daughters. And not just any ole Dad’s. Black Dad’s! I loved it. It was a dance put together for inner city girls and their fathers.

“This weekend, more than 40 fathers and their daughters danced the night away in Harlem. The fundrasier, hosted by Millenium dance company, stressed the role of fathers in the lives of young girls.”

I love it 🙂 Watch video below

http://abcnews.go.com/WNT/video/dancing-dad-13293945?&clipId=13293945&playlistId=13293945&cid=siteplayer

Talking to my BFF this past weekend, while in Eugene, Oregon. I’ll reflect on that Midwife Conference in a future post. But talking to BFF makes my cheek bones sore (smile), has me laughing till my ribs hurt. I love talking to her. And because we don’t talk on a daily or even weekly bases, it makes our talks all the more worthwhile.

Things that make my soul smile, would be when I accomplish and finish a DIY project. When I make my brown sugar scrubs (as simple as they are) I feel genuinely…happy. 

A clean house. As awkward as that sounds, those are one of my inner smile moments. A fresh clean house from ceiling to floor, with hints of eucalyptus and lavendar in the air definitely makes me smile.

 
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Posted by on April 5, 2011 in dear diary

 

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